With the rise of Mental Health awareness...especially in Millennials. I always tell myself whenever I am feeling what I call a 'mood' coming on. I tend to disconnect. I now know that isn't the best thing to do. My 'moods' normally only last a few hours to up to a day where I don't want to talk to anyone, see anyone or do anything ( like get out of bed ). I know alot of friends of mine suffer depression like I do and everyone has their own way of dealing with it but we all have our moments where society breaks us and expects us to live up to the standards our parents, grandparents and ancestors fucked up for us. I am not saying that everything is bad...I am just saying that the high expectations need to stop.

I don't want to be forced into having children because I am getting older and you already had 3 kids at my age. I don't want to be forced into marriage because society says when you date a guy for however long and live together then it's only natural. I don't have to buy a house. I am perfectly content in an apartment or a condo...maybe even a loft. I am working on getting another car but why am I being given a time limit on everything. The economy isn't as happy go sunshine and rainbows anymore and everything is raising in prices besides a paycheck. When you have to rely on roommates in order to just scrape together buying food. Where you will be paying student loans off until you basically pass away.

Okay at this moment I think that I am beginning to rant. The reason I was writing this post was because I wanted to share about my mental health and why I take breaks from society to unwind and pick myself back up. I think my trigger started around the weekend and proceeded to bite me in the ass everyday until yesterday ( May 30th ). I decided to force myself to leave my apartment and walk around the city. I did a little shopping, grabbed some coffee and enjoyed the weather ( even though it randomly started raining ). I think the fresh air and music definitely put me in a better mood and I even woke up this morning with a smile on my face.

What I want to say is that Mental Health is a real thing and if you feel like you are struggling then reach out to someone to help you. Whether it's a friend, coworker or a stranger. Talking to someone will help you. I am thankful I have someone to talk to whenever I get into my 'moods'.





Remember when I did posts like 'My Week in Some Words'? I thought about bringing that series back onto the blog but then I remembered I always ended up forgetting what happened during the week. I can literally blog from my phone but if I am completely honest...I keep forgetting. I could sit here and come up with a million excuses as to why I don't write as much anymore when in reality...I write all the time..just in my journals. alot of people think that blogging is all sunshine and rainbows but I wanted to shut that myth down on my blog once and for all. 

There is no surprise that I take a shit ton of photos ( I love photography ). Some are random and some are planned but 9/10 times lately alot of the photos are just things I have seen around the city and decided to take quick photos of what peaked my interest. I wanted to share this because it's good to see the raw unedited side that doesn't make it onto Instagram. 



MONDAY

My Monday's are generally just typical. I normally dedicate those days to getting work done but since this Monday was a holiday in America ( I grew up with celebrating different holidays like the Queen's Birthday etc.. ). Anyways like I was saying. Monday was Memorial Day and normally my family and I would go into the city and play Volleyball but this year we didn't because well the whole family isn't around at the moment. My eldest sister is currently away in Canada for military training & my second eldest sister is still stationed in San Diego until the end of July. My little brother cares more about his friends and only contacts us when he needs something so obviously playing Volleyball today was out of the question. So, instead today I stayed in..watched the worlds dumbest ( but funniest ) anime called Asobi Asobase and played video games. I did manage to create ONE flatlay to post on Instagram but even I could admit that it wasn't my best work...so I am back to being creatively burnt out yet again. Had some delicious fried shrimp with white rice and french fries. The french fries were quite on the salty side but nothing a little ketchup and mountain dew couldn't fix. Overall...my Monday was quite ordinary so hopefully I have something more exciting for Tuesday to share!



TUESDAY

Tuesday mornings are by far my most hated. Why? Well, I wake up obligated to get work done and well majority of the time...I just don't. Especially after not doing anything the day before.

My day started around 8:30am like it normally does. The crazy thing was I was having such a bad case of insomnia and I didn't fully fall asleep until 4:30am. It's the absolute worst and it hits me at the most random times but what baffles me is the fact that I always wake up around the same time every morning well rested. I told myself that I was going to be productive today which I sorta kinda was...I was able to complete one of my deadlines which I could pat myself on the back for cause I did it in no time. I guess I wasn't creatively blocked today.

Next, I decided that it was time to sort through some of my clothing. I got some new clothing for my upcoming trip to Florida & Vegas plus the change in the weather. Plus I also want to get back into shooting and the lack of me posts on my Instagram and even here on the blog makes me a little nervous. Out of the new items that I got...I am sending like 3 pieces back. You know when you are online shopping and certain items look so good on the models but then once you get it and try it on it looks horrible? Yeah, that was the case for me. So, as much as I would have loved for the pieces to work out...they are going back to Nastygal. 
WEDNESDAY

There are days where I wake up in a funk and I would be okay the following day. I am not sure I am not happy at all this week. I know my depression spells comes and goes. Right now...I really want it to go away. If anyone knows different ways to get someone out of a funk ( I mean I don't want to go outside or be around people ) please email me & let me know cause I am struggling! The plan was to go out today for sure and return some pieces to Rent The Runway but I saw that my watch for a collaboration I am doing was out for delivery and I had to be home to sign for it. I am slightly obsessed with it and I am happy that they sent me a watch that matches my aesthetic. Let's hope that tomorrow is a better day and that I have more amazing stuff to share with you guys! 





I am going to be completely honest. There were/are some trends that I told myself I would never get on board with then after a few months they grow on me. I cam literally name a few from the top of my head but then I wouldn't be writing this post if I wanted to share them all one time. Right? I cannot get over the amount of items I said I hated and I would never buy sitting in my wardrobe and they are currently the first things I reach for. 

I found this particular Fanny Pack in H&M randomly. I think someone was hiding it to come back and purchase it but I found it instead. I picked it up and contemplated purchasing it whilst walking around the store and in the end was possibly the best purchase ever. I tried to find it online but I couldn't so maybe it was only available in stores? I bought it for $20 but I have linked some similar ones down below! 

I cannot wait to share my next 'Trends I Used To Hate' with you guys! 

MY OUTFIT

Sweater - H&M 
Leggings - H&M
Beanie - Zara
Glasses - Tijn Eyewear
Shoes - Shein
Fannypack - H&M

        


Happy Monday loves!

After celebrating Mother's Day this weekend and well the weather currently being bipolar. I thought it would be cool to sit down and write out a couple blog posts for you guys. Obviously reviewing coffee shops are back on my radar seeing as though I have actually visited a few new ones. I actually don't have any excuses as to why I don't publish my posts anymore and I have the app on my phone to write on the go if I don't bring my laptop along with me so at this point I really have NO excuses.

I wanted to talk about a new little spot that my love Marj and her hubby Julian told me about! The spot is called Chez Lily Coffee. They were having a promotion for $1 drip coffee and $3.99 for their signature flatbreads ( the cauliflower vegan flatbread was a bit more ) but I definitely had their amazingly delicious Earl Grey Latte which I will definitely be going back for another day and maybe to get even more beautiful interior shots of the spot. Seriously just thinking about the Earl Grey Latte is making my mouth water for another one. ASAP!

I ordered a basic cheese flatbread and even though I felt like it could have been in the oven a little bit longer cause the cheese was a little underdone but overall it wasn't that bad. I will definitely be going back to write a better review and really experience the space without a time limit.



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